Hello all. I fixed the comment feature ... if you have struggled in the past to make comments on my blog-you shan't have that problem now! :D
Today was a good day-or it should have been. I worked a good 6.5 hrs...
I don't really know what it was but I was aggravated today. I woke up feeling like I am doing less than I should... that I don't work hard enough and that I am not appreciative enough of the wondrous beautiful life that I have... That is how I felt today.
I felt angry and frustrated... and I felt like I was letting myself down.
I think I know where this came from (and now that you can comment feel free to let me know what you think)... I think this all spawned from writing my defects of character out last night. I felt like I was truly embracing them... I was willing to accept them as things that I have done or have been but at the same time I am ready to heal and let go of them and I DON'T relate to them anymore... They are still a part of who I am and who I have been ... and... because they are defects and I don't want them anymore... it is easy for me to reject myself.
Are ya with me?
SO With that Step 5- "Admitted to HP, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs." and Step 6- "Were entirely ready to have HP remove all these defects of character" ARE SO IMPORTANT!!! I KNOW that the only way I can get rid of these feelings is to do step 5 and 6... I feel like with step 5 and 6 I can be reborn a bit... you know what I mean? I feel like with step 6 my HP can truly give me freedom...
Does that make sense?
Anyway-I hope you had a beautiful day!